I love you,
more each day....
it still surprises me
how it grows
even when I try not to

Just warm
love
head to toe
each day

I just had to say...

He has been a wonderful gift
I felt a strong deep connection
I can only imagine how wonderful
it would have been if it was mutual
But, lol
a wonderful gift his has been.

I'll try to keep that as a focal point
to mend my heart.

Dear Someone Special -

There are some words I need to say to you, yes words
But I can't seem to get them through my lips...
I think them, as I look at you but I can't I just can't seem to say them.

There's no right moment,
The weight of the words is so heavy, so very heavy!
All those feelings, emotions, desires tied to words
I can't utter...

My mind says run, run, run
My heart is fragile and stubborn

I don't know how to tell you that I love you so very much...
That just the thought of you makes me smile...
That I would a wait a lifetime ...

But you confuse me,
do you know
is it better if I am silent?
do you want me to be silent?
is it just fear?

give me a sign
let me see past the love to
reality
let me know what is real

let me know

will I regret not saying the words?
years from now will I wish I'd had the guts to say
I Love YOU!

How long can I hold this
hold the words
the desires

risk assessment:
what do I lose if I speak
what do I lose if I am silent

Ah, they seem the same don't they
Surely, this will pass eventually...

I just wish it would rain...
Let me vent, explode, erupt...
I need the release...
I need to get drenched head to toe....
I need to splash and play...
I need to let go...
I need to touch you, taste, feel you...

I can't take much more...
The dance is thrilling and exhausting...
I want to allow myself this...
I want the pulsating joy that is...
I want to feel the downpour...
I want to feel smooth and slippery...

Yes, I desire a thunder storm of sensual rain..
To cool this heat of me...